Remove Fear, Insert Love/Joy
I woke up this afternoon with some ambition in me, but off to work I had to go. Now I am back home and I am ready to do what it is I need to do. I have to start facing my fears. All the fears I am simply ignoring, being in denial of for what seems like common sense, but I feel that if I do not face all these fears, I will live a life that no one really will talk about much after I am gone. I know that the only thing to really fear is fear itself, but I think now I am actually “getting it.” You can understand a concept intellectually, but to understand it fundamentally is a whole other ballgame.
Like I said, facing fears is what helps people grow. If we did not want to grow and just stay sedentary our whole lives, then there would be no reason to face our fears. But that’s not the kind of life I want to lead, one filled with missed opportunities and regrets. I want to live a life of fun, accomplishment, and peace. I have decided that I need to reach for my dreams and just go out and pursue them, without any fears or doubts about how it will turn out, because I will be doing what I love and doing what I love is a success in itself, whether or not anyone else agrees with me. Just the fact that I go out and do my comedy and write these blog posts, and whatever else it is I may wish to accomplish is amazing in itself. Every moment where I am doing whatever it is I want to do, what I feel I need to do in my spirit, in my heart, is a success to me. This is why I will one day be able to acquire nice things, not material things, but nice redeeming qualities, like compassion, forgiveness, and oneness. I’ll be living a dream, where success is the only thing possible.
I just have to keep eliminating my fears about reality. I guess, as some people put it, the end of all spiritual wisdom is love, completely devoid of fear or insecurity. A place so high up, and so comforting that it is truly wonderful to be alive at all times. Where you feel like you are walking on air and swimming with the dolphins (?) A place where I live in peace and harmony with the rest of the world, without the assistance of eharmony.com.
I have to work through the irrational fears I have and start moving towards love and forgiveness. I know it is possible, as I am experiencing it further each day. I understand where I am going, and just need to find the correct path to get there. I do not rush there, as it is not a static destination anyway. It is the whole journey that is fulfilling, and as long as I keep going on it, life couldn’t get better. I find it amazing how far a spiritual journey could take me, and it is still taking me further.
Wherever this journey takes me, I am grateful for everything it brings me, and am grateful to be alive. The fact that I am here and able to pursue anything I desire is just icing on the cake, a bonus to me, an amazing bonus that can only make life that much more worth living. I only wish everyone else felt this way all the time, as I am beginning to feel lately. I’m not exactly sure how long this feeling will last, but right now, it feels like it could last for an eternity.
March 1st, 2007 at 4:56 am
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March 2nd, 2007 at 3:43 am
Gratitude is definitely a wonderful way to invite positive occurrences into your life. Whatever fears you discover and confront within yourself will no doubt enable you to grow stronger and more understanding of yourself. I wish you energy and the will to continue along this meaningful path. You will get out of every experience exactly what you decide and choose. Life is really that simple.